“I loved
her and she left. Maybe I wasn’t enough. Maybe I’ll never
be enough.” I’ve been thinking these words since before we
even got together.
Everything is new.
The old no longer has a place here. Physical items are easy to replace.
I'm constantly battling the ones that
aren't.
Every thought and
memory I have is stained.
By
you.
You
weren't even there for half of
them.
How is she still
present even though she left?
I can do this.
I’m going to survive losing her.
*** This is the
second book of the His Series, and it DOES end with a cliffhanger. The final
book of the His Series, Finding Me, will release June 1,
2015***
“Dude,
you’ve got to get up.” Jameson sighs as I pull the pillow
back over my head. I don’t even know what day it is anymore. I
don’t care.
What adds salt to
my wounds is the fact that the world keeps turning. People continue waking up
and going about their day. The sun rises and sets. I hear kids laugh and play,
neighbors greet one another, and birds sing, and all the while I wonder how?
How does the entire world appear to be surviving this nightmare of losing
her?
****
Hank
comes to visit in June. I still haven’t heard from Ace, and yet
I’m still staying at my mom’s. I can’t leave. I
can’t go back to that house. I’d moved rooms shortly after she
left, and now reside in the guest room on the main floor. It’s better
this way. There aren’t any pictures of her in here or random
memories, like the one of her sitting on my bean bag chair when I was sick last
summer. I also don’t have to face the window that looks out onto
hers.
Hank knows that I
know mom sent for him, hoping that he’d be able to
“help” me. She of all people should know that having Hank
around isn’t going to help me. He’s fucking married to the
love of his life; he doesn’t have a fucking clue about the shit that
I’m going through.
Of all things, Hank
wants to go camping. I’m sure he thinks that getting away will help.
He doesn’t understand that moving rooms has helped me realize I could
go to Antarctica, and things wouldn’t change; the distance
isn’t going to make the pain any
less.
When
we get camp set up, Hank opens a cooler and passes me a beer with a giant,
shit-eating grin, like we’ve just overcome a huge hurdle. Deciding
that I shouldn’t rain on his little douchebag tea party quite yet, I
accept the beer with merely a grimace before taking a long swig. Before long,
that single swig becomes a chug, and then a guzzle as I consume more alcohol
than what three people probably
should.
I sit by the fire
and close my eyes. My mind automatically reaches back into that locked and
forbidden drawer to pull out the image of Ace, striving to recall the sound of
her laugh, the feel of her touch. It brings me back to our camping trip last
September, when Jameson announced that was what he wanted to do for his
birthday.
Becoming His (#1) – Find on
Goodreads
Sometimes
life's unforeseen paths lead us to discovering sides of ourselves we
never knew existed.
Ace Bosse has
always found solace at home, but when she returns for the summer from college,
she builds an unexpected relationship with the Reckless Max Miller.
Three years ago,
Max left for Alaska to find what he thought he'd lost, but now realizes
just how much he left behind.
Max teaches Ace
that sometimes a little crazy is exactly what life needs while learning that
some chances are worth taking, regardless of the risks.
But how do you know
when you've met the right person? And will they be prepared to
experience one of life's biggest
obstacles?
Falling in love
isn't easy--but holding on to it is where the real challenge lies.
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Mariah Dietz lives
in Eastern Washington with her husband and two sons that are the axis of her
crazy and wonderful world.
Mariah grew up in a
tiny town outside of Portland, Oregon, where she spent the majority of her time
immersed in the pages of books that she both read and
created.
She has a love for
all things that include her sons, good coffee, books, travel, and dark
chocolate. She also has a deep passion for the stories she writes, and hopes
readers enjoy the journeys she takes them on, as much as she loves creating them.
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