Title:
5 Stages of Riley
Winters
Author: R.D.
Berg
Release Date: Nov
2, 2015
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He left me shattered and
mentally scarred. Our divorce should have healed those emotional wounds. It
didn't.
Nine months have passed, and I
am still trying to piece together my life that was torn to shreds. I am a shell
of the person I once was.
GRIEF
-
Shrouds me in a cloak of
darkness, isolates me from family and friends, and barely leaves me treading
water. The only thing keeping me afloat is my rambunctious three-year old son,
River.
FATE
-
Brings Liam Bowers into my
life. He offers me everything my ex did not - love, adoration, romance and
peace.
TROUBLE
-
Slithers it's way back
into my life, threatening to kidnap the only glimpse of happiness I have
found.
My past and future are
colliding, and I am afraid the only fatality will
be...me.
Alfred
Lord Tennyson wrote this sweet little poem, that even if you’re not
familiar with poetry you can more than likely
recite.
“Tis Better
to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all.”
You want to know
something?
I hate this poem. Every time I
see or hear it I have to choke back the bile that threatens to escape.
It’s collection of strategically placed words are complete and utter
bullshit which people cling to in order to help them deal with the aftermath of
a shitty relationship. What this poem fails to explain is that in the process
of you loving the wrong person, you can subject yourself to a lifetime of
constant pain and misery. It neglects to advise that when you decide to let
this love go, you are left with a plethora of jagged broken pieces that you
must somehow find a way to piece back together; you have to become a seamstress
and learn how to stitch your own heart until its whole again. You are left
trying to figure out the why’s and how’s and what could
have-been. Until finally one day that fragile limb you’ve been
standing on breaks … causing you to fall into the unknown not
knowing where to turn. The only thing you know is that you are alone.
Your thoughts of hopelessness and pain are the only company you keep, and no
one, not even the one’s closest to you could possibly understand.
Why, because they have chosen not to travel down the uncertain path of love. As
for me, well my case was special, I loved an asshole so much that somewhere I
unwillingly lost myself. I loved so hard that I was blinded by his untruths,
none of this love I gave was reciprocated, and I paid the major price after I
chose to disembark from his endless circle of disappointment. The price I paid
was not in any monetary value, but my debt was settled by a journey I never
wanted or asked to be a part of. This is my journey back from the
dark unforgiving tunnel we call grief; these are the 5 Stages of Riley
Winters.
RD Berg lives in the great
state of Texas with her three boys who drive her to the brink of insanity most
days. She loves to read, write and watch her two favorite shows, Game of
Thrones and The Walking Dead. When she isn’t enthralled with a novel
or a gory show, you can find her in the stands loudly cheering on her boys at
their basketball and football games. She has three strong beliefs in life; Vanilla
cake and Blue Bell Homemade Vanilla ice cream should be a major food group,
Halloween should be celebrated every month, and Harry Potter’s
birthday should be a national
holiday.
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